A smile brighten up the day

2009-02-09T03:39:00.001-08:00

ANy WAY ... MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING !!!!!! 20 MARCH ...!!!!!!

Leonards Birthday 2009

2009-02-09T03:06:00.000-08:00

Ha Today is LEONARD's Exact Birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY !. Yesterday Went to celebrate His birthday and to my horror. I got to get up super early to go shopping with him @ expo. Was super irritated by his morning call ( AS HIM KEPT ON CALLING and that explain why i am pissed of). In order to finish making the video for leonard i stay up till 4am in the morning. ha. I saw him walking down the stairs and quickly hide from him... After that went to his room and put that the bulky presents. After that sort of tellin a white lie. ya. After that went with him to vivo city to eat our lunch. WE ate at white dog cafe it was not bad la ha... then meet at the cafe for the rest of them. Jeremy brought his girlfriend along... Hehe What a cute couple ! On our way back to leo hse ... jeremy left at city hall with his girl friend and then me, glenn , val and leo were on our way to meet his another two friends, jian hao and craft ( dont noe if its the correct spelling). In the mean while, me and val started to play "hai tai " in the MRT. HA ppl were looking at us but was super fun... haven play that for ageses le. When we reach his hse, Immediately his mum asked us to eat. Was already super full but still carry on with it . Overall .. all of us have fun la...

wedding dinner

2009-01-01T08:33:00.000-08:00

Today went to one of my relative wedding dinner... all the deco was super duper nice...the bride and groom are very pretty and handsome too haha ....

2009!!

2008-12-31T19:27:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to count down with my family at down town east ... yeah have lots of fun! ITS A BRAND NEW YEAR !!!!!!

Here are some videos ( some are not clear ): )

A whoe new beginning !

2008-12-29T19:12:00.000-08:00

"No river can return to its source, yet all rivers must have a beginning."

HAppy Belated Christmas to All ! 1 more days left...starting to count down ! 2008 have been a great year to me as it have given me the chance to see through peoples heart and know who truly care for me, understand me, and will always be there for me. Even though i cant be 100% sure but i choose to believe so. Li Ling and Sam Thanks for listening to me and constantly giving me advise to all those hillarious problems. Wan Peng , my cute friend, and i went through the toughest time together, lots of arguement and doubting each other trust. All this tiny little stuff make our friendship stronger, even though we dont meet up as often as last time but i believe that our friendship will always be the same. I am sorry that i used to follow the crowd and neglected u really sorry! now its not the case any more, Its just purely me and my own thoughts. i will not follow the crowd but think for myself. I dun wan to waste my time on the wrong ppl and miss all the happy moment with those i shld be with. Ha ! Wuan yi , the biggest sotong i ever met. Ha but thanks for her blur blur behaviour, it have bring joy to me. Majority of the time she will be late and thxs to that it helps to train my patience, not really effective but it does work sometime. To be honest , some of the time i really cannot stand her ,It make me feel super frustrated. But this is part of building a friendship, we have to tolerate each other weaknesses and turn it into a strength. Everyone is imperfect. Even i do ! so in other words , I would like to thank her as well. for tolerating my weaknesses. Heehee the next few will be CH and Nicholas. This two friend of mine have make the tuition lesson alot more interesting than ever. I am very thankful to noe the both of u. Even though we onli meet once a week but our friendship seems like 2 years or more hahah. Next year wont get to see nicholas le will miss ya ! Next will be joey and jing wen. Though we rarely talked to each other for the past few years but still thanks for being there to listen to be me when i need them. I do not wish to noe what have happened in the past , what u guess have commented before. Its a whole new beginning and lets start all over again k.... from the very beginning! haha. As for those i did not mention... not that i have forgotten about you guys so dun worry . You guys still play an impotant role in my life. As for those whom have disappoint me... i would like to say good luck for u guys and all the best for the future ahead of u guys. Its not that u all are not good enough for me just that u guys are not the those kind of friend i am seeking for and willing to commit myself into the friendship. However thanks for teaching me the importance of trust and alertness. 2009 will be a brand new beginning to start all over again. Make full use of this coming year and wishes those taking o level with me good luck and jia you. May you people score with flying colours !

updated wish list

2008-12-23T00:57:00.000-08:00

Updated my CHristmas Wish list ( rate from most wanting to least):

1. This two books below

2.Pooh Bears
3.Plenty of surprises which are unpredictable
4.Clothings/Accessories/shoes/ bags
5.One whole day of Fun, Joy and laughter (*Memorable day)

BLEAHX OUTING

2008-12-22T00:42:00.000-08:00

Yea... Today was bleahx outting. Meet VAL in the morning at ehub for lunch then after that meet up with leonard and off to NTUC. was surprise that jeremy was there ... yea did our shopping and have picnic at bleach. we PLAY TRUE OR DARE and lots of funny things happened. At ard 7pm ... meet jing wen at vivo city to borrow story books from here... Thise two books really make my day man... was crazy over them recently!!!!!!!!

Science Center

2008-12-21T16:46:00.000-08:00

Went to Science Center yesterday with Wuan Yi. Had my breakfast @ mac and then we start to explore the place

This Picture below show a couple and a rose, CAn you see them ?

yea

2008-12-17T07:49:00.000-08:00

Christmas coming in 7 days !!!!!

CHristmas wishes o8

2008-12-11T06:01:00.000-08:00

Hm.... nothing special today. Study with val and finish off my last maths homework. Have fun at the arcade...played the big sweet land again. This time round we get plenty of sweets instead. ha! Next time aim for JACKPOT again. YEah.
Come out with 5 christmas wishes:

1.Pooh Bears
2.Plenty of surprises which are unpredictable
3.Clothings/Accessories/shoes
4.One whole day of Fun, Joy and laughter (*Memorable day)
5.A friend that can lend me their shoulders to cry on.

Haha Thats all. Cya

raining heavily

2008-12-08T03:45:00.000-08:00

Just happened to browse through the net and saw this:

Everything I Do, I Do It For You by Bryan Adams

Look into my eyes - you will see What you mean to me Search your heart - search your soul And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for You know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into my heart - you will find There's nothin' there to hide Take me as I am - take my life I would give it all - I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love And no other - could give more love There's nowhere - unless you're there All the time - all the way
Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more I would fight for you - I'd lie for you Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you

PiscesFree Daily Love Horoscope
You're loving, romantic and sentimental but you tend to view the world through rose-tinted glasses, especially when you're in love. You make a great best buddy because you are always willing to help a friend in need, but this sometimes means you end up neglecting yourself - and you rarely ask for help even when you're desperate. You tend to underestimate yourself, too, but will usually excel in everything you set your mind to. You're also one of those annoying people who say they didn't do very well in an exam and end up getting 95%.
Pisces Perfect PartnerIf you're a typical Piscean, your best bet for romance is with either a *Cancer*, *Scorpio* or fellow *Piscean*. These signs are easy to get on with, ultra romantic, good kissers, fun, imaginative and love devoting every moment of their time with you.
Other Interesting points to note for PiscesPlanet: NeptuneColor: Sea GreenGemstone: AquamarineMetal: PlatinumFlower: Water lilyAnimal: DolphinHerb: RoseCities: Miami & Sufers Paradise

* if u wanna to look out for urs, go to this link
:http://www.yourlifehappiness.com/horoscope.html

Ever been in love before? Then you will need some teen love advice. This teen love article will help you with your love life and you will experience dramatic changes in falling in love! If you have someone whom you find yourself being able to do absolutely anything for, this teen love article will help you. Don't worry, you are not alone.

Love is an ActionOne thing to keep in mind though. LOVE IS AN ACTION. yes that's true. The "thing" that you feel in your heart, or the "feeling that starts at the bottom of your stomach" that is just mere attraction. It has nothing to do with love. Love only starts when you begin to DO things for a person. This does not include words. It starts when you are deciding whether to wake up 5 in the morning to make barley and delivering it to his or her house when he or she is sick OR when you sacrifice going for a party or a movie just to watch him or her study for his or her test. It is all about sacrifices.
Love is a Promise
Another thing that people in love tend to forget. Being together does not mean that one must not be attracted to the other for his or her whole life. You will meet many people, some of whom you will have an immense attraction for. Who knows, things might work out between the two of you. But when you are together with someone else, you made a promise. And that is what differentiates two people having feelings for each other and actually loving the other.
Love means Sacrificing Sometimes
The third thing to keep in mind is that the truth is you are attracted to a HUMAN BEING. There are bound to be differences between the two of you. That includes different ways of handling problems. You need to keep this in mind when working out problems. It is always almost impossible for one end to come to a complete sacrifice. The two parties in the relationship must come together to a compromise. This involves each party to sacrifice a little but isn't this what love is all about?

Today my parents coming back from oversea and i made their fav dessert:

the recepie is taken from this website: http://www.woklife.com

hm.. how should i say

2008-12-07T04:12:00.000-08:00

Today woke up quite early in the morning... meet Wuan Yi @ Simei then went to whitesand to shop... Got a FREE ice cream from the new shop at whitesand which is near the entrance of it. Planned to watch movie at first but it cost $10. Rather wait till week days . The ticket is much more cheaper. After lunch we went to the arcade at Ehub. Play the BIG SMALL LANG machine and we hitted the JACK POT. haha we got a mickey mouse coat thingy... very cute plus one big bag of sweets. ha. Met Jing wen in the toilet ( she was in the toilet for the past 1h before we met) then went down to watch the sweet berry short cake performance. ya very cute indeed. We tried to learn the dance steps but did not manage to show case our talent haiz.. haha. After that nothing much and off we go.. home sweet home!

These are the video:

2008-12-03T04:51:00.000-08:00

Today went out early in the morning to meet lau and sze ern @ Bk chit chat alittle...ya clarify alot of things...super relief now! yea never felt so good after so long. Then meet nicholas and CH at kembengan mrt platform...planning to go cineplex to watch movie . We watched the four christmas, super funny laugh all the way. Before CH join us...me and nicholas went for window shop. OMG i really cant stand him. He tease me all the way and hit me super hard...child abuse! jkjk DId alot of funny things as well and ate a ice cream which cost $5.50! Nicholas simply can't stop feeling being cheated as he thought we are given 3 big scoops of ice cream...

ha when i want to take photo with him...he was like " dont want la! if CH agree to take with u then i take with u 10 times" i was like" ok lor but he dislike taking pic sia sure lose de!" but buT But ! when he met up with us, i took the opportunite and take a pic with him... Nicholas then have to give in to me and take 10 pic haah ( haha See la bet with me la) Out of the 10 pic this is the nicest ha:
Then after the movie went to centre point to walk walk see see and off set go back home. But here comes the embarrassing part. Nicholas kept calling me "mai ying" which refer to someone who sell the body . Then i reply him this:" okok ... i mai ying better than you rite... at least can support myself!" suddenly to my horror, the aunty turn around and look at me. as if i am really one. i was like so embarrassed by it and my whole face blush. Then nvm after that dunno why nic suddenly said i am carrying his child and why am i so cruel to go abort it.... then another aunty and one young guy turns and look at me. The young guy laugh at it sia... that really added on to the embarrassness! lol THX alot ! now even if i jump into the yellow river also no used. cant clear the misunderstanding..pray hard that i wont meet those 2 aunties and that guy ever again.

Heavy rain

2008-12-02T05:05:00.000-08:00

Yup yup ... Just got back home today totally drench. Lke soup in the chicken haha . Had dinner with my aunty and she passed me my salary for this month haha a total of $500 hehe haven decide on what to do with it yet...maybe use it to buy my school books and shoes ba haha the rest keep it in the bank?? Thank to my friend, li qi she just finish her o level and just nice she have not find a job yet so she will take over my place to continue the contract. luckily the manager is kind enough to allow the switch heeh thx alot. Phew...working is tough and tiring. Now i think study is more impt ba haha got to pull up the socks le weee... was raining heavy today and soo this is my saver of the day

cardboard!!

2008-12-01T04:43:00.000-08:00

General
Today went to one of my primary school friend party and have lots of fun.. lost 60cents when playin blackjack. Guess it wasn't any luck for me today . its still ok anyway as long as everyone down there is happy :) Went home at ard 3pm becuz i have a sister to baby sit. Finish another set of maths paper . Great accomplishment today !

Friends
Ha very thankful for having this three friends of mine.

Nicholas: thank you for all ur history notes and tips for o level. ya really appreciate it and talking to u make me think alot...exercise my brain hehe ...I'll enjoy our previous time watching movie together and dinner!! eheh

Chor Chong: Ha thanks for being my listening ear for this pass 9 months++ and coaxing me to sleep almost everynite ha. i dun no how to thank u for all this ... seriously i really enjoy the time watching movie with u and nicholas. Next time lets go again k...

Taufiq: Someone i just noe not long ago... Both of us really have alot in common, think we are long lost twins hahaa. Really appreciate all the great advise you have given me and lets go out together one day ha! heheh

By the way X mas is coming ... Hinting*
Chor hong thx for introducing this song:
Lovely by michelle tumes
You're the sweet dreams that soothe meWhen i can't fall asleep
You're the field in the middle of the city
When im rushing by the speed of lightyou're the strong resolution
when i find no peaceyou're the church bells ringing in the eveningwhen
all is quietyour whisper comfort, lifts my heart, i get so weakcho:
Ooh, you're lovely, lovelyyou're the center of my universe
(my universe)
a thoudand timesilook around me and i findOoh,
you're lovely, lovelyyou're the center of my universe
(my universe)
a million ways cannot explainyou're lovelyyou're the soft words that touch me
when i just cant speakyou're the breeze on the ocean int he morning
reminding me to greet the dayyou're the flowers i remember seeing
in italycolors through a golden hazebright and radiant, soft and fragrantin
the noon day sun, it makes me singchorusI understandthere
may be grief and there may be painbut i am awareyou blind
the darkness with no You are, because

fun fai

2008-11-30T05:39:00.000-08:00

Yo everyone! Today played the whole day with my cousins and try to rush finish my homework.... Have alots of fun teasing one another becuz my mum went to dig out our baby photos haha went i saw mummy's and aunties i laugh till i drop haha cant imagine how nerd they look like when they are young... now all of them look totally different. Went to east coast and cycle plus being throw into the sea ahah... not as bad as my sis. being struck in the pile of sand haha

dam hurtful

2008-11-26T04:12:00.000-08:00

Having very bad sore throat and flu, yet to recover. Went to meet joey today to study and later on zad join in... after that listen to joey saying lame joke but then its not funny...( only one of them is) haah still enjoy her company. She and Zad sent me to bus stop. Meet my mum at bedok for dinner then off we go back home...However still Feeling super hurt today and tired of living...Living in this world full of lies and back stabbing. Its sucks! Now that i am mean...but seriously i hope their retribution will come soon....

Videos

2008-11-25T20:19:00.000-08:00

Came across this song yesterday , Teardrop on my guitar and found that it suits how i feel recently. HaHa

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Cool Day

2008-11-24T06:32:00.000-08:00

Today woke up @ ard 7am and went to school for chemistry remedial. Got a can of milo as enery booster haha then went to whitesand with chelsa ... went to the toy machine hope to get the pooh bear as a christmas present haiz unfortunately cant get it. After that went to downtown east to meet one of my friend and we watch movie ... we watched beverly hill chi hua hua .Very funny and then process to X zone for some basket ball game. Think i am much more interested in the candy machine... *craving for candy at that time haha Then went to work ... omg its super exhausting today got alots of things to carry. then me and friends decided to take a break and switch on the computer .After reading leonard's blog... suddenly becomes very emotional... hhaa after that on MSN there is this guy named taufiq... suddenly he asked me "why do I feel like a retard?" and thats how our conversation started ... eventually we become friends haha was thankful to get to know him. Guess what ? his add was in my contact list for at least 1 yr++ but i did not realised that there is such a nice guy in there ... DIScover something special today haha yeah!

Spring cleaning

2008-11-23T04:49:00.000-08:00

Today spring cleaning... and this is how my room looks like

after 6 hrs of packing it's finally done...

ha i found lots of interesting things too such as old photos and old letters from friends... haha even my previous SIM card hahah

weird feelin

2008-11-22T04:59:00.000-08:00

Today went to training early in the morning leave at abt 11am cuz i have to attend my family outting. After that went to CHC to look look... The atmosphere was good and i really enjoy it. But got to leave early cuz my mum wanted be back ASAP. ...HAve dinner at Grandma hse the noodles she invented was nice and i have asked for recepie.haha Just dun no why When i am browsing through my Old phone msg and contacts, I saw one msg that really touches me alot. Tears almost rolled down but i got to control it in front of my parents ha. Just remember that the msg was the one that motivated me through out this whole year... yea! very thankful that i did not delete that away.HEHE The rest i will just let fate to decide...

meeting out with bleahx

2008-11-21T06:02:00.000-08:00

Today went out with val almost the whole day. Have lunch at seoul garden. Chat and eat at the same time. And yea we came out with out own recepie ... the end product was nice so dont judge it by its cover haha Val is a great cook too haha

Then after lunch we went to the face shop, waited for val to choose the nail paint colour for at least 20 mins ... hahha then went to white sand and take neo print. Note bad it seems ages that i took one ha! then met leonard teo for dinner. Haha shop alittle while more and send val home lol .After that went euno with leo to find his phone. Unfortunately no one found it.
PS: leonard dun worry i am sure someone with good heart will return it back to u one day so dun worry about all ur contacts.
Overall i enjoy it alot heheh

Feeling so weird today

2008-11-20T04:06:00.000-08:00

HAiz..Just finish work. dam tired! Ha. Today my mind was full of that person's name. CAnt stop thinking! plus i do not know what to do to make it go away. Exercise do not help , drinking do not helping and i dont think smoking will. how i wish time will just stop awhile so that i can amend those mistakes i should not have made. Some of you guys thinks that i am strong mentally. Actually i am not. I am just a average person whom will still cry. all the mixed feeling makeing so confused and i hope that there will be someone out there to be my listening ear and lend me a shoulder to cry on. Regardless of female or male ! Just by looking, my heart began to ache and tears started to roll down. I just cant control it. Everytime i keep telling all my friends that study is more impt than anything else. Realised that i am so foolish ! should not have worried that much and gave up all the things. Found myself being the dumbest person on earth now. ok now the most heart warming part ...Haha I Was surprise that nikolas called me and bid farewell HAHA as he is going to thailand ( if i am not wrong)...hope that he will have a safe trip there.

Fun

2008-11-19T06:56:00.001-08:00

Today suppose to watch movie with Aifaa and Aaron in the morning but then last min aifaa say she cant make it, so left the both of us only. After the movie when to arcade. The candy machines cheated my feeling lor! eat my $1 ! Aaron keep laughing la and call my stupid or retarded. Dam bastard la him. Then meet Afiaa , clinton, mua,louis at loyang point mac to go to jonathan house for the gym. We have fun in the gym and realised that clinton have jogged for 8 miles ! bravo man ! me and aifaa was like ...erm ok ! then jonathan came and join us. did not do much and off we go into the pool. the first few was clinton and mua then me and aifaa. I did not realised the pool was 2.5 m and nearly sank all the way down to the bottom. luckily got aifaa. phew then louis came into the pool and join us. At first we are playing who can last the longest breathe in th water? haha.Eventually me and aifaa won and the loser have to swim 2 laps. ahaha all of us was like kept splashing water at jonathan and Aaron. Cuz they are the ones left dry. After that dunno when Aaron jumped into the pool and we have fun throwing Clinton's pants as well. Jonathan was half drench. Next time we will get him man... haha just joking la. Then off we go
back home...yeaH!

yuppp

2008-11-17T20:02:00.000-08:00

Just did this test , It might not be true....
Go try it if you guys want: http://handwritingwizard.com/

This is my analysis...

Daron uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Daron has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Daron fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Daron has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Daron is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Daron is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.
The circumstances when Daron does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Daron will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Daron is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Daron doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Daron will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Daron is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Daron learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won't forget.

Daron is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate.

She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most.

Daron is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Daron basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Daron is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.

Daron is having a lack of physical energy at the time this handwriting was written. If someone has very short and straight down lower loops (like in the y or g), this indicates this person's physical drive (activity or sex) is compromised. Usually, this indicates the person simply isn't interested in getting too physical right now. This could be a temporary mood which often happens when the body is sick and is healing. Or, this could be a result of an emotional or physical issue that is effecting Daron 's energy level and interest in sex. Sex doesn't seem to be a priority at the moment.

Daron has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

seoul garden

2008-11-17T09:04:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went back to school for physics remedial. After tat went to cut my hair. Not much changes actually just abit thinner hhaaahaa then meet the bio landscapers at marina seoul garden. HAve fun eating and just dun no why mr rahmah and mr ong are laughing among themselves. Guess what! Mr ong can speak malay very well and he understands it ! omg gossip alot and we went arcade after that.Did not know mr ong would play the red blue green button game very well ! he won almost every round! dots overall i have a great time yeah

Fruit full day

2008-11-16T05:51:00.000-08:00

Today wake up in the morning to do homework.Kind of fun actually.
Then at ard 1.31pm arrived at FCBC. Never thought that i would enter again
But my inner soul tells me that i should do it and eventually i did.HAve peace within me now... Learning to let go of the things that are not suppose to be mine.God have shown me his captability and i hope to see more of it.
Help me to forgive others and ease the pain deep inside of me.

back from camp

2008-11-15T05:51:00.000-08:00

Yeah finally back,
Went to cambodia on 2 nov -11 nov.
Have a tough time unpacking my big big luggage.
Day 1 in cambodia:- We check in @ townview hotel and went to buy all
the remainings logistics at somewhere near the centre market.
-Follow by having dinner at one of the chinese restrauant.Have beef noodles
Helpped jia Qi along with 5 bowls of it. Seriously its super full.
-Then have a good night sleep and prepare for next day.
* my room mate is Dessire
DAy 2 in cambodia:-wake up early in the morning and have breakfast at the 6th floor.
- off we go to the dumbsite for our projects.we have walk through the muddy muddy area before we reaches the school. Its stinks alot but still...it's fun hahaha
- Did our project and i find the children there very open and warm as well.
Its something one will not be able to experience in singapore.
- Went back to hotel to wash up and pack our luggage.
- Arrive at UNACUS at around 11 plus 12
- have a tour over there and some of us got children attached to them. If i remember correctly the first few to get a partner were jonathan ong, charleeen, jing wen, dessire ..
- we are sleeping at their church and its quite a cosy place.
- After we knew our projects from our teachers , immmediately we have to start planning
-The refurbishment team have to build the clothes line instead of painting the tables.it was quite unexpected for some.
-As for English team ... not much changes for the upper level but as for the lower level there were many changes to be made cuz majority of the things they have learn b4.
Day 3- Day 8 in cambodia:- We wake up at ard 7am in the morning and off we go to the school to do work.
From Morning ----> afternoon( Rest for 1h ).....> Evening
-Very tough indeed but when all of us work together nothing is impossible yeah!
-Have our meals with them, not quite used to it at first but did manage to adapt to it.
- Now more of us are attached with at least one child. All of them are super cute.
* My buddy is called Shyna.A very cute little girl.
- We went through lots of obstacles before reaching completing our mission
-eventually WE DID it ! finish it in time.
- Have a farewell party
time for us to bid good bye !
Day 9 in cambodia:
-Check out of the hotel @ ard 9am ... have our breakfast and off we go
- Spent 6hrs on the bus before reaching siem reap
- Check into the hotel and off we go for our dinner and shopping.
Day 10 in cambodia:-Today we went to the beautiful landmark of cambodia- Angkor Wat
- Was impress by the craving on the wall and it tells us information of the history of cambodia.
- One thing is that each building stucture have craving through out the buildings.
-WOnder how they have carry the rocks and do the designs on.
- Later part of the day we went to one of the market to do our final shopping.
-Brought alot of things and we went to the dam.
- Have dinner at one of the chinese restranuant.( 10 dishes)
-Clinton and Eve are the record holder for eating the amount of rices!
Day 11 in cambodia:- bid goodbye to this wonderful country and prepare to touch at SG airport.Know alot of friends from this trip

Before we even have time to unpack our things...some of us are preparing for our next camp- Student council Retreat
- Gather ard 8am and check into GV hotel
-Have our course in the morning and set off for the hikes
- Went to mount F. and took the cable car. Very fun Experience lots of shouting n singing.
-Did our night trail and me and jeric were on the front line (quite scary)and Hazyqah and suryan be the back people
-Accomplish it and have our dinner cum supper at pasir ris central.
- Have lots of fun at night ....
- Have the feet washing ceremony... teachers are the one doing it for us
- very touch by it

haha

2008-11-11T06:59:00.000-08:00

i am so into doing this

cambodia

2008-10-31T20:12:00.000-07:00

Today is my last day at home before departing to cambodia. Its a very new beginning for me. hope that during this trip i will be able to discover the other part of me. Hiding behind people shadows, are what i am doing right now ... I want to be true to myself . never want to commit the same mistake as before... cya

2008-10-29T05:48:00.000-07:00

End of MAD camp ... The planning of english lesson as horrible. All of us crack our head and think of many possible ways to last the lesson for 2 hrs. Not easy at al. When to clinton hse to do the rest of the planning and doing og props. in the end we gossip more than we do work lol but luckily it finish in time. Yeah! However due to statistic shown we are really behind time alot. We have to speed up alittle on this Friday. CAnt joke as much as previous time le. >0< haiz. going off to cambodia in about 3 days time. Time pass so quickly just one wink its already holiday. O level coming soon as well haiz. Think need to be a nerd this hoilday le after coming back from cambodia. Will be focusing more on netball and academic le. Jia you girl. * just a precaution if something happen to me during the trip . Touch wood ! i hope to tell everyone i love that do not give up easily , jia you all the best for ur exams or work outside.
To my bleahx family: Thank you for all the happy mermories you have given me. I will never forget it. Even though we did not meet each other this often any more but i believe that our affection towards each other will never die. Jia you everyone. Hope that we will meet again when i come back. Must dream of me ya

To all my friends: thanks for knowing you guys and i have leanrt alot from you guys. if it wasn't for all of you i will not be who i am now. thx alot.

*To the special someone: Even though we are more like a strangers right now but just wan to let you know that you are the one that make me stronger and the one that i like the most despite many things that had happened. Forgive me for not treasuring the moments with you, forgive me for taking you forgranted, forgive me for not telling you the truth. all the best in finding ur future gems.thx for being there for me when i need you. Its something i will not forget even i have left the school..

Cya guys !

YO KEVIN

2008-10-20T05:28:00.000-07:00

1.The first person who you though of is?
Kevin... FOr now ...
2.Your Relationship with him/her?
Erm can count as friend or brother and sister
3.Your five impression of him/her?
Lame, Blackie , Crazy, MAd, sporty
4.The most mermorable things he/she had done for you?
By pulling my bag and hair... ( that hurts man)
5. The most mermorable things he/she had said to you?
Too many to recall
6.You got any thing you wish or request from him or her?
Always stay happy and stop pulling my hair
7. As a friend what does him/her needs to improve on?
Erm... Hot temper?
8.If he /she become your enermy, you will?
Heck care...
9.If he /she become your enermy, the reason will be?
Arguing about Stage management.. ( if you are selected to be one)
10.The most desired things you want to do for him/her is?
Buy him one guitar ( even though he have one already )
11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
Not bad... LAME
12.How you thing people around you will feel about you ?
MAD PErson...lol
13.the character you love about yourself are?
About to talk to anyone i meet?
14.On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are ?
Impatience
15. The most ideal person you want to be is ? in terms of look?
ME myself even though i dun have the look
16.For people who care or like you ,say somthing to them.
Jia you ! I will always be there for you when you need me ...wahhaa

17.Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you.
*Valarie
*Leonard Teo
*Kevin
*Joey
*Wan peng
*Ryan
*JIng Wen
*Chor Hong
*Jeremy Yeow
*Jeremy Ong

18.Who is no.6 having relaionship with ?
Erm... I thought he like guys better ? ( JKJK)
19. Is no.9 a female or male?
MAle. Der
20.If no.7 and no.10 are together is it a good thing?
War will occur. NO
21.What is no.2 studying about?
Currently in poly, studying engineering
22.When was the last time you had a chat? with?
Just Leonard teo
23.What kind of music band does no.8 like ?
Not sure
24.Does no.1 have any slibings?
No. not at all
25.will you woo no.3?
OMG i dun think so
26.How about no.7?
I am not les...although i behave like one
27.Is no.4 single?
Should be ba
28. What is the surname of no.5?
Chee...lol der
29.What is the hobby of no.10?
Somthing to be with DJ kind of stuff
30. Does no.5 and no.9 get along well?
MAy Be
31. Where is no.2 studying at?
Some where in Singapore
32. Talk something casually about no.1.
She is a micowove plus microphone
33. Where does no.9 live at?
Tampine??
34.What colour does no.4 like?
erm...black?
35. Are no.5 and no.1 best friend?
Dun think so
36. Does no.1 have any pets?
No for sure
37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?yeah !
Erm yes and no la ....no comment
38. What is no.6 doing now?
Not sure... dun no

Long long time

2008-10-13T07:26:00.000-07:00

Yo I am back ! Haha Blogging session now ! YESTERDAY when out to study with wuan yi. The both us were very tired and felt like sleeping. Did alittle maths but give up half way ... haha Then LEOnard Call ! OMG its was so surprise that you will call up OMg thats so cool haha Hope that more of it will happen... hehe hinting* Today is the LAST Paper for EOY exams super happy. Give up during MCQ very sleepy! then at ard 12.30pm have interviwe till ard 6.30. Butt going to burn le lol sitting there for more than 6 hrs. Its a killer wahaha then after that meet Bleahx for dinner. It's since a long time that we met up like this. Everyone of us change alot but i am sure that we still love each other as always ! yea ! Happy people. Laugh alot in Swensen ! All of us ate that same type of food. whaha and after that we have chocolate fondue. Me and val were crazy somehow as the things we did will give others a impression of being a lesbian....OMG haha but that was fun. Hope that we can still meet up often to share all the wonderful things we encounter in our life....heee hee always stay happy guys !

BAck to updates

2008-09-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

Yo guys im back! It was a long time since i last blogged! Lots of things happened druing this two months. Was busy with teachers day concert and CSC ! FINALLY ITS OVER. YEAH ! However its not time to celebrate yet ! EXAMS IS COMING ! How great was that ya??!! finish one event next one on the waiting list. haiz...busy busy again. Yesterday when i was on my way walking to simei shopping mall to meet my parents for dinner, a lady suddenly walked towards me and offer me to share her umbralle. I was shocked but grateful. first time sharing umbralle with stranger but was touch by her small little kindnes. Though i was dreaming but it was so real ! wahahah so happy.Teachers' day concert turns out to be a success. thanks for the help of my backstage crew, AVA friends and fellow performers.all of you did a good job! ( although i do not know what had happen behind backstage but it was a great job!:) )Manage to survive through the council survive camp ! did not get killed by the terrorist and is here happily blogging. This year the camp was tough for both campers and seniors as we have things going on in the morning and in the nite time we have to go through all the activities. Fun though but it required lots of energy. Good luck to the next CSC ! hope that it will be a success ( Always) whahahaa time for bed got to go now cya ! think the next time i blog will be 1 momth later ba.... Looking forward for exams, MAD trip and NEtball East zone( WD Wait for me whahaha i will be back real soon)Jia you wishing all my friends good luck for your exams Especially those having N level and O level this year ! all the best ! Thank you to somebody too for listening to all my complaints for this 2 months plus thanks alot !heheehe i am crazy ! wahahha

Broken heart

2008-06-16T03:11:00.000-07:00

Flash back keep on entering my head today.Every place i go have many significant events that had happened before. It was Very mermorable for me...Thinking back, i was so foolish and stupid. Never had i thought that i would landed in this state. Thought that this was what i want.I was wrong! very wrong ! I should have follow my heart and do what i did not do instead of what i should do. Things ain't the same anymore. Haha But still i Manage to stop eating for today! congrats to me !wahaha keep telling myself that i have to continue the path i choose to go...No matter how tough it will be, i got to overcome by myself. MAybe this is fate man! we cant go against it or else we will bear the consequences. Indeed i am facing right now! Its too late to even amend it. Nevermind shall let the past be the past. the mermories will always be kept deep down in my heart and i will be putting a heavy stone on it to prevent myself from thinking abt it anymore.So to whoever who knew what is it please help me keep it as a secret and prevent me from bringing it up again thx.Will really apreciate it! Luv ya

PS: You will be my one and only; deep down in my heart no one will be able to replace you

Im sure of what i want

2008-06-14T07:53:00.000-07:00

Good-byes make you think. They make you realize what you’ve had, what you’ve lost and what you’ve taken for granted.

Today when to gym with val...exercise for 20+ mins and we head back to
TM to buy our lunch. Ate mos burger ,macwings and french fries... Drank Bubble tea and coke too wahaha. Jumbo Feast ! Then we watch titanic...the first part was boring but the second part was so touching that make the both of cry
From this movie i have learnt to appreciate those who care for me and whom i love.
For fear that one day i may just close my eyes and never open again...
Also dunno y suddenly though of someone when i was watching the show.
Super Weird! Dun no y suddenly think of that person. Think having fever le ba. Hai
maybe i am really .....nvm dun think so ba! cant be that true. I am so confused! Y am i hesitating so much ? Eeeeeee i dun like ! yuck! hai ya. Let fate decide man ! FAte will help me decide and this time round i wont fight it. Fought it once! ended up losing the battle ...

Middle of the holiday

2008-06-11T09:49:00.001-07:00

Holiday going to be over soon and i have yet to enjoy it.
Everyweek is like another routine. CCA, Meeting ,eat,do homework and sleep
What a bullshit man! No life at all! if im lucky maybe there is someone to out with to shop or catch a movie. If im unlucky ...everyone is busy with their own stuff.
No one to talk to, no one to complaint to, no one to share my joy with !
I hate this man!Feeling so empty luckily i there is food to keep me filled up. Seriously it cost a bomb! i used up majority of my pocket money on FOOD! even my parents is scare of me haha ! Yesterday i ate 3 bowls of rice but wasn't enough to fill up my tummy. i have to have at least 6 meals a day to make me feel filled up. Surprisingly my weight went down haha ! yeah! 2nd time in my entire life i lost weight due to eating ! I try to eat dam slowly le but was still hungry haiz...Currently cant even sleep well at night. Kept on thinking of food ! hm...yum yum maybe i want to have fried rice for breakfast 2mr ...? But am i really hungry ? or i eat becuz i feel empty ? I am broke !

im so lonely

2008-06-05T09:33:00.000-07:00

Camp just over ... Coach going off le. No emotion at all.
Things are still de same. how i wish miracles will
happen in my life.But i doubt any thing will happen.
Relationship will my brothers wont really close right now
feeling sometime missing in my lofe but i dont know what is it
Still finding the answer to it...

Things not going well for me this few weeks:
1. Majority of my girlfriends PS me becuz of their BF.
2. Super boring this holiday.Everyday is like a rountine.
3. Does not even have time for some FUN.
4. HAve lots of homework to do.
5. Relationships with both of my families not really close now.
6. Whatever i expect to happen did not happen.

Rude day

2008-05-16T05:54:00.001-07:00

Just got up not long ago wahahah...Today got back my IC during recess...look super digusting! ( warning to all: NEVER TAKE YOUR PHOTO OVER THERE...WILL LOOK SUPER UGLY!!) Got back E&A maths paper two...Did super bad for it . Fail my English by 4 marks super piss off la. haiz wat to do what is done cannot be undone. Nvm Today after school got MAD meeting as well as inter class netball...HAVE A VERY big ARGUMENT WITH JIA QI...cannot take it anymore la feeling so hopeless then but everything has settled...now we are neutral continent wahaa feeling super heartbroken argueing with her ...like millon pieces of glasses piercing through my heart OUCH! thx goodness everything is over...phew...Feeling so dizzy after taking the malaria pills but was alright after a good nap whahaa yea!

Stupid mid year

2008-05-15T06:26:00.000-07:00

Got back almost all my papers...did pretty bad.
All of the marks all below my expectation....
Wasn't feeling very good after knowing it.
Tears just flow out like running water.
Did not know wat had happened to me during the exams
Maybe due to lack of sleep,
Nvm what have passed let it go and look at the future.
Just heard some even unexpectd news from my friend
that another friend of mine is going to quit the tuition.
Did not noe wat to say to him either
Half of me wanting my friend to continue but half of me was thinking that
it might be better if quit and join a new tuition centre.
What a day ! everything is so miserable for me today.
Results not good, Friend quitting!
Hoping that my friend is still able to stay on...
Use to make fun of him le wahaha Think will be not use to it ba
if he just quit like that...
This friend of mine is like another half of me ....quite scary sia
wahaha who will react the same as me whaha yahoo! and we share quite alot of things in common...hm interesting
wondering if he is going to transfer anot...
If both of them leave like that i think the class will be super boring sia lol
i dun want!

Wonderful Marking day

2008-05-14T04:09:00.000-07:00

Yes! Exam period had end! So relax now ! Finally can have a good night sleep le after so many days of not able to have a peaceful nite. Rushing for the next day exams. Not Im completely free! can go anywhere to shop or play le! 2 more weeks before i depart for CAmbodia...Pretty excited for the trip but also have many things to worry abt...haiz shall not mention it ... Wonder how am i going to make full use of my june holiday...Am i able to study the whole day ?? what a good question indeed...hm aiya come back from Cambodia then say la whaaha

Mid year exam 08

2008-05-09T08:11:00.000-07:00

Yea! Left with two papers! Biology and A maths...which i have no confidents in. Nvm soon it will be over muhaha! Finally can unlock my computer le yea! Today went to val's hse to bake cookie for my mum as mother's day present.It was my first time doing it ... abit messy lucky got val. wahaa After that went to Genki to meet my parents for dinner ...Its since a long time that i haf sushi for dinner. Finally able to have a proper meal with my family ...Did not do any revision today !Die ! i have wasted 8 hours today ...2mr must chiong le for the sake of my result. A2 wo lai le wahah!

What a day man!

2008-04-25T03:05:00.000-07:00

Today morning was super hyper till feith tell me she saw my A mahts result was 17 marks ! irritating! my half a day mood was likeby that fact...( feith not blaming you was just angry with myself ...) phew lucky i passed in away but if i did it with all my best i wont feel so doubtful ! Got back two test this week.. did pretty well for the first time. wahaha so happy! begin to feel the momemtum back...my main goal now is to do well for my mid yr ! Jia you ! However there is something that have
been occupying my mind ... is there a solution to get it off me ? haha nvm i shall try to solve it

Things just not going the way it is...

2008-04-17T06:17:00.000-07:00

Exams are coming soon... Many things are happening.
Time is moving so fast, things are changing one at a time.
How i wish that i can see u smiling like the way u use to be
Not now this presents look. Gloomy, full of sorrows
Is there any thing i can do to get the smile back on ur face?
Im wish i can do sth. Sth that will bring happiness to you.
Making full use of my time for fear that i might regret.
My time is gonna use up soon...
Planned to do sth that i wish i wont be doing.
But i have made up my mind... Start to countdown soon.
My mind going bank nowadays...
All your names are in my mind evey seconds every minutes every hours.
Heart may harden, blood may turn cold
but sweet, warm mermories will always be in my mind.

Hoping today will never end

2008-03-23T04:26:00.000-07:00

Today woke up super late ,around 11 plus 12
Very tired indeed , My bed so comfortable !
Then meet jordon at ard 1 took Mrt to Bugis
for window shopping and movie( birthday present)
Watch Step up ! quite good but can be better haah
Before watching we went to bugis street to shop.
Plan to buy someone present but did not buy in the end
haha though of sth even better.
He bought sth which onli cost 10 bucks! was the cheapest
among the rest of the shop.
Crap alot on the way , practically talking non-stop
watch the movie at ard 3.05pm ended at ard 4 plus 5
went to arcade to see see look look
THERE IS SOMEONE WHO GOT SO MANY SOFE TOY! OMG!
there planning to go back home...
there were so many people in the train super squeezing!
that we can hardly stand proberly!But overall! enjoyed alot
Thx for the present ! love it alot ! But u still own me 10 bucks!
hehe Jia you for your upcoming exams and hope that you can finish ur hw in time !
haha! Jia you !

Brother

2008-03-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

Today went out with my mum,sis and aunty to suntec city to shop
each of us had grabbed an item that we like ...
So cool like its free...haha
At the same time i have some crazy ideas for someone birthday celebration
which is 1 month after mine...hehehee thats obvious
After unloading everything ,when to meet leonard and his mum at bedok
Her mum look super cute today haha very pretty too
cut my hair today . look abt the same but the length diff onli lol
crap alot with him at he NTUC haha start to advertise chocolates...hehe

My birthday

2008-03-20T07:12:00.000-07:00

Today is my 15th birthday! Yuppy ! Finally it arrived!
After school when home straight immediately with the big birthday gift...
Super hard to walk back...
Then when to tampines to meet leonard teo
Eat our lunch at century square ,meet val and we eat together too haha
Supected sometime was amiss but dun no wat is it..dots
received a present from her and let her any how poke!
Since morning keep hitting my bum - pain !
After that jeremy yeow joined us for the neoprint ...
then suddenly after taking ,Leonard suddenly ran out
dun no go where...
THen me and val went back to TM cuz she wanted to go to minibits to buy sth .
But turn out that i was pull into seoul garden and leonard sitting down there.
Very suspcious ! their acting had improved seriously!
then my parents when in ...and thats when everything fall into place
Leonard had coordinated with my parents
( But he lied to me at first cuz i suspected it le)
Was chatting while eating and found out from my sis that my dad is trying to see
his future son in law , i as like dots all over la
then near the ending part , every staff from the seoul garden
walked towards our direction and sang birthday song
Its was the first time i experience it abit malu but deep down
was touched by it( too bad i did not cry haha jkjk)
Then i started playing cake fight!
leonard was the first one i targeted haha
then he take his revenge dots... so chocolaty!
Val and my sis was sitting down there behaving so civilised
but ended up they being whacked with chocolate cream
not long later darrell came , whacked cream on his face
val was so worried for him lor...so protective
then found that there were two cake
One from Leonard one from mum
really thx u for the chocolate cake , Love it really alot !
After val left with darrell, my and leo was like having a meet the parent's session
so crappy, daddy was like interested in him la...
(PS: Daddy He is mine haahaa Im married to leo , jeremy and val)
After chatting , abt to walk out of the shop ,
we saw sth we shouldn't have see...( those who are there shld noe wat i mean)
hehe But nvm its our secret!
Overall ! was very happy ! thx alot bleahx love you alll even more!

Specially thx to VAl,Leonard Teo, Jeremy yeow, Adibah , Fann Howe,Wan peng Jeremy Ong and all my friends. Really appreciate it alot! Thanks

it will nv be thhe same again

2008-03-14T06:24:00.000-07:00

Sun will Shine and lead us out of the darkness
BUt when it do...will i get part of it?
When is it my turn ?
I had already done my part but yet i ended up in this state
Its so unfair!
CAnt i be treated fairly?
Am i so not worth it?
True! i am holding back some of it
But Thats the onli thing i had left
CAnt you even spare a though for me
Its ok to not have everything back
but stop taking the remainings away!
I have already say wat i have to say
so when can i see the light?
Is it possible to be more generous to me?
Must i let go everything to please you?
If thats the case for get about it
I wont do it !
but i missed them so much, till i cannot take it
let me have them please i beg you ...

Never able to return to nomal

2008-03-13T02:50:00.000-07:00

I regret not telling you how i feel
I regret not treasure the moment with you
I regret that i take you for granted
If i say i dun no the answer,
That will be a lie
I knew it all along from the start
Forgive me for makeing you so upset
Forgive me for not telling you earler
For fear that you might make a wrong decision
Forgive me for being so selfish
If only time will return
I will tell you how i truly feel
Forgive me for not telling you the exact reason of it
Scare is just an excuss
Cuz i already know my answer for that question
To tell you seriously its not easy to come up with sure excuss
Its like walking in a dark alley with two exit
One is bright and live happily ever after
One is storming will lots of obstacles
NO one would want to walk into the storming path
But i did, For a better future for you and me
It's heart breaking to let go,
to see someone i really care walking out of my life...
But i know i have too do it
Im sorry! for being so selfish!

2008-03-12T18:33:00.000-07:00

When can i get out of this miserable world?
Where are all of you ; my dearest friend and love ones?
Why i need to go through all this every time?
Am i chosen to take up this task?
Why is it me!
I don't want to be the chosen one!
I want every thing back to where it was
I am willing to give back everything that you have given me
Please let me have everything back !
History is about to repeat itself.
Hate that experience so much.
Why must you do this to me at this point in time?
Its simply the wrong timing.
Why am i always the one having to suffer at the end
When can i have something or someone that is only belong to me
Me alone not anyone else
Friends are like a pail of water
once its spit out , it will never get back again.
I'm about to lose someone i really depended on.
I have already lost someone i love dearly
Don't want to continue losing.
But what can i do to prevent it?
Its too late to even say a thing
I should had treasure the moment i have spent with you
The things you say , the support you give me!
The day i am so afraid of is arriving soon
If i am given a chance again
I will tell you i love you alot!
I wont take it for granted anymore.
Please Stop the Time now !
I want everything you took from me back !
Give it all back to me!
You have taken my true self
I am tired of this empty body of mine
My poor miserable soul is searching for my true self

2008-03-11T06:24:00.001-07:00

Remember the first day when I saw your face
Remember the first day when you smiled at me
You stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
Remember the first day when you called my house
Remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
ohhhhhh,

I know that he loves me cause told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause its me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
Remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we've haven't argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games
Remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each other's hands,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right there and then that you were the one

I know that he loves cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

I'm so happy, so happy that your in my my life
and baby now that your apart of me
you've showed me
showed me the true meaning of love(the true meaning of love)
and I know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

2008-03-07T07:18:00.000-08:00

I really cant stand it anymore. My heart is aching like no body business ! I freaking tired of everything. I cant even protect what i have. Seeing others that have a happy look on their face ...make me feel like crying. Those are the things i once use to have. Bleahx ppl where are all of u ... i am lost now help me can? i dun wan to be alone . very scare now ... Ppl i care alot are now starting to change. i understand ppl do change but it's to fast to react already. Now i can feel tht i am going to lose someone i really care... im so scare i dun wan that to happen. Will that PERSON just stop changing for a moment! i cant stand it anymore. Must i really say out wat exactly how i feel ? cant u try to understand it. I need someone to care for me, understand me , be my listening ear , lend me their shoulder Now ! i need it very badly... Super insecure now ! anytime also can end my life right now ! How i wish time will stop now!

Meee

2008-02-23T06:56:00.000-08:00

Today went out wif val and watch P.S I love you super touchy. It make me cry so much. my tears like tap water like that keep on running when its open. haha It let me understand that we do not know when is end of the day for our loves one. Dun be afraid to tel them how u truly feel or else it will be too late. After watching we went for shopping then went back home. Its pretty exhausting. after a bath at my grandma hse i immediately fall asleep on the sofa. haha Occupied by DARon NA !

HAPPY chinese new year

2008-02-06T04:19:00.000-08:00

Yea! today CNY concert finally over. Phew! it's not as tough as the first time i did stage management. maybe i got the experience le ba. I AM SO NOT HAPPY WITH MY REASONS ! SUCK LIKE HELL! nvm do better next time. Hahah its a brand new year for me this year so many things happened. My Wishes for this year is to have all my friends to be together with me especially bleahx family. i missed all of u . sry that i am unable to be wif u all! thx to my tight schedule! haiz and i hope that i wont regret my choice. its sth that is unable to change. nvm its over. Jia you !

Home sweet home

2008-01-25T00:58:00.000-08:00

Finally back home from camp ! Its my last sec 1 orientation camp le ! super duper Fun and exciting but quite sad la. There is still so many things i wanted to share wif them but due to time constraint ...cant really do much ! This year is a very differnet style of organise it ! Other than the normal Roles in the camp , the instructer also involve in it. Super crapy la all the instructors ! ai yoyo but there are some very funny de ! During the camp fire nite can c that all the sec 1 had been more closer to each other. Its the happiest thing i can ever felt now ! wahaha

wat a meaningful day!

2008-01-19T06:35:00.000-08:00

Whahah blogging now ! Yesterday when home super early...upon reaching home i met evepreet and we chitchat alittle while Miss 2e4 Alot alot man ! dun no how to express it. Very Complicated indeed. Hm...after some rest at home, when out wif val to bugis then we go Shop shop. The price for all the clothes almost all cost 10 dollar. Super Unique la ! wahahha too bad buy my new yr clothes le haiz. Before going back to bugis junction val brought two specs . WITHOUT DEGREE BUT look good on her. heheee Continue our shopping at bugis junction! VAl when in to the neobie shop to look for clothes both of us try the same one . Look like twins sisters wahaha val plan to buy it but she still want to look for other choice at the other shop. Before going to the other shop , we went in to ta shop full of soft toys and cute cute stuff. I wanted to found the big big pooh bear face which i have it in my baed room now but the shop owner say there is no more stock for it ! but there is a smaller version of it .wahkaka When val saw it she was like "WANT TO BUT FOR ME?" then i came out with lots of excusses for it till she boil. Sry VAl 9 not that i dun want to buy for u just waiting for the rite time so wait patiently k. Jia you Jia you. After departing the shop we went into the other shop. VAl eyeing a purple tee shirt with a moo moo on it quite cute actually. But the sad thing is that she can onli but one. So she is stuck between the pink tee at newbie shop n the purple one. She keep on hestiating that lasted for 15 mins till she decide on it. In the end she brought the pink one for Chinese New year wahaha! Gong Xi Fa Cai ! After purchasing the shirt me n her when to Seoul Garden to eat ! Its my first time peeling prawn shell for SOME ONE LOR ! IN MY ENTIRE LIFE U NOE ! FIRST TIME . When we are almost done wayne pop out all of a sudden . See he missed the both of us too much wakaka JKJK . After eating me n val took a few cool pic of our self super funny one also have whhaa. then when in the train going back hm . VAL Just hit my breast in front of so many ppl lor.lol then when reached bedok i found out that val mrt card is with me . then i fast fast cheong in to gif it to her and the door was abt to close already . Phew just in time ...quite a nice exercise though....

long story

2008-01-14T07:20:00.000-08:00

Its since a long time that i start to blog . I can predict that this year is going to one of the worse year i ever encounter. SO MANY HOMEWORK! haiz...nvm Get into the wrong class le lor. No one to crap with the . Miss Wan peng nagging all of a sudden. Miss Sera scolding too... pratically miss my sec 2 classmates alot alot. Any one can help! Work load is also increasing ! die . Nvm la Got my friends wif me i not scare wahaha. Hm. wonder if my wish really will come true?? hope that one of them will.

NEW YEAR

2008-01-01T05:24:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS! ALL THE BEST ! Yesterday when to countdown at Expo. Super fun la . the atmosphere over there was super high la... never expect that to happen but in the end it still did . haiz nvm la treat it as an experience. Before going there m, wan peng, val and kevin went to play arcade at whitesand ! super hyper la. And val got somehow adicted to the game call crazy taxi . also my first time c her play house of the death. pro! pro ! haha. We play from afternoon 1pm all the way to ard 3 plus then we went to the cafe in the library for a short break and we started a small discussion. [secret] After that we went back n continue ! we play n play till all of us were tired ! we took a rest at the 5th level of whitesand n play true or darn. VAl got all sorts of crazy ideas...lol can die doing it ! n dun no wat she say to kevin until he blush like hell...haiz nvm AH.....2mr school starts! OMG all my 2e4 friends all go dun no where liao... onli left a few onli sobz. Teachers too ! all the teachers i hoping for all its either went to teach sec 1 or the sec 4 . dam sad lor . And NETBALL EAST ZONE IS COMING SOON > CAN START TO COUNT DOWN LE ! SHLD I TAke higher chinese ?? any suggestion ??

Wedding

2007-11-24T07:21:00.000-08:00

in my dad's car lots of funny thing occur ! I changed in the car and i kept wwarnig my dad not to turn behind if not he have to paid one millon dollars in cash ! wahaha my mum arrive at the hotel early as she have to assist the bride she look very beautiful in her wedding grown ! like an angel coming down to earth ! the Groom is SO SO HOT ! too bad not my generation de ! if not i would have woo him le ...haiz. This was my 4th time putting on make ups ! super uncomfortable lor ! if my grandmother wasn't there i would not have to put on make ups already ! saddist case ! during the ceremory half way the groom was made to carry the bride from the stage to the exit door ! but he have to do sth ...apart from carring the bride he have to walk pass a row of glass filled with wine in it and in blind fold somemore ! lol ! he hit onto two of the glass but nvm he still continue ! they then kisses each other at the exit door ! *so SWeet* then second part the bride have to toss her hand flower ... i though normally it will be done at the early part of the day whereby they go for registration . Hm maybe sth new ba! the Food was nice so does the return gift... its a CD and their photo album ! the CD was their MTV ... so cute and romantic lor ! how i wish my wedding was sth like that too wahaha like the movie Enchanted ! i dun mind it at all ! hm...AIYA NOW NOT THE TIME LA...STUDY MORE IMPT ! WAHHAA after that they are then send back to their hotel room ...from there i not sure wat kind of things happen le ! hehehe shld be sth interesting ba!

Surprise !

2007-11-24T07:03:00.000-08:00

Today wake up super duper early ...then went to do volunteering work ! very fun and exciting work indeed ! HAVE TO KNOW WAT TO GET AND WHICH ONE IS WHICH VOLUNTEER! can say that the job is quite tiring but still enjoying it ! If possible just help as many ppl as i could although i knew that there are uncountable ppl to help in the world but i will try my very best to help them. From there i had learnt that how human are so useless when they are going through the aging process and have the fear in the bottom of their heart that they might just pass away any time ! That is why all of us shld live life till the fullest ...dun hesitate in wat we are going to do and the things we plan to do. Becuz we do not noe how long we are going to live in this world ! so treasure all the moments together with the ppl ard u . dun reget after that ! AFTer the volunteering work, its time for surprises ...meeting jeremy and leonard first then go to bugis to surprise val. It was meant to be a surprise but haiz... last min lots of things happened ! My mood STARted swinging ! Luckily have jeremy yeow to stop the swinging if not i would do something out of my mind ! phew ...then board the MRT with val , susie, LEonard and jeremy back to Whitesand to take Neoprintz ... jeremy in charge of it ( so proud of him ) while I in charge of the gift...whahhaa so fun ...can go shopping ! LATER on LEONARD have to go off then me, val, susie and jeremy went to the arcade to play DDR ! was surprise that jeremy would play DDR with Val even though he cant really play ! Really proub of him...dun noe y all of a sudden he became val lao gong ?? then i became their granddaughter ...Cool i am so young! wahaha then after that they went to MAC while i have to rush home ! It was like so dam rush la ... until i forgot to lock my hse door ! LOL then went bugis , my dad pick me up form there !

Every Moment together

2007-11-21T06:48:00.000-08:00

Wahaha This three days at home all by myself without my parents ard cuz they went oversea ! So cool ! on tuesday wwent out with val for breakfast. then i go off for my dental appointment and she go to the water conservation center to learn how to save water ...doubt that she can do it whahaa but Nvm. then i dun no y i accidentally board the train first. waited at tanah merah MRT staion for one and a half hrs for Joey...suppose to meet her at WS at 1.30pm wahaha so cool ! then ME, val ,Jia qi and joey went to bugis together for shopping ! whaaha then we separate into two grps cuz we wanted to buy different things then me and vval went to bugis junction to buy two identical watch ! then Val later was attracted to one pink and black shirts. The pink one look really like council tee while the black one she have sth that look lke that already ... in the end she never buy ... its the last piece alreay ! aiyoyo so tis sat we going to bugis again to buy that pink shirt if they still have stock ( hope that there is:)) after that we went hm. Before i go hm i went to the pasa malam near bedok interchange n i saw Little miss tee shirt...so i help val to buy one of it cuz it was selling really fast and she really wanted to find it so much ....she look cute when she wore it ! whaaha guess wat ?!??! LEO and val When to my hse to have dinner with me and we crapped for a while!! that is so cool!! At first i was so worry that leo would go missing in bedok area cuz can say that he sometime is a sotong la but true enough he still smart and board the correct bus...phew ! After dinner Leo suddenly .......val was like shock in a way (further detail i wont tell you all ) They really make my day fun and enjoyable man ! thx u very much!

Trip During CHina

2007-11-18T04:04:00.000-08:00

The teachers there are so much different from ours. In Singapore, no matter how much our teachers scolded us, some will till choose not to listen. However the students over there were expected to be respectful to their teachers and obey the instructions given to them. If not punishments will be given to them.
During the past few days in Ming You School, I finally understand how fortunate we are compare to them. I must admit that their school had very strict discipline in them and always ask for better performance. Despite all those negative things, it had also made a really big impact in me. It is also my first time teaching the small little children English. It was quite tough for me at first as it needs lots of patience to teach them because I am a person with no that much of patience. I try to change the way I do things and it really works! But still we got to be firm with them and teach them slowly as their ability to understand English is still very weak.It’s a pity that we can’t stay there longer and seriously it was too luxury for us!!!

School over soon

2007-10-22T17:03:00.000-07:00

Haha Currently in Rain forest lap now ... relaxing and day dreaming... i had taken back almost all the papers except for art....scare scare cuz alot of ppl fail it ( according to other class) Haiz. CAn say that my overall result for the term suck like hell ...2 days ago i found out from my mum that she had been lieing to me la...she say that i have to transfer but there is no sure things at first ! very piss off my her la...did not tok to her until yesterday night ! but still have to understand y she is doing it ...nvm shall not say anymore! OH ya ! THIS FRIDAY GET BACK REPORT BOOK ! DIE FOR SURE then have to choose our sec 3 classes...haiz planning to go art class cuz its less streeful but deep in my heart ...haiz...nvm doubt that i have a chance to go in _ _ _. wahahaa ok la gtg le...dumb dumb clinton sitting beside the next com and trying to see wat i blog ! whahhaa BYE BYE!

After so many things happened

2007-10-19T20:17:00.000-07:00

Hi guys ! ya just updated my blog...Exams over le can say its quite relaxing now but there still so many things going on...RETURN of EXAM PAPERS ! ah... omg so far i got bak my DnT , MT and MAths paper...I did badly for my maths paper lor... the marks is sth that i did not expect to get...Sob but nvm i try again next time not to be so careless ( MR NG U WATCH OUT I WILL SCORE FOR U TO SEE) NOw i will have to depend on my others SUbject marks to pull me up le haiz ...Deep in my heart the fear is so call "COMing out" le i dun wan to transfer school seriously ! i cant bear to part with all my good friends and teachers who help me so much . YA especially this person... u just do not know how i feel ....u making it worse 4 me lor ... u did not know how my classmates look at me and the pressure they gave me ! SO STOP provoking me le la... haiz Its seriously hard to accept the fact la ... u will nv get it de lor...Nvm enough of saying ![ My dear Val DUn be too upset k? although guides and scouts combine just rmb that guides will always be in ur heart and all of u try to be the best ! Dont care how much strenght the guys haf but believe urself and strive for the best ! I believe in all the guides ! Jia you! Val dun be sad abt ur marks k... u HAve done ur best le ! failing is part of life everyone have to go thrgh it de ...but believe it or not it will be the start of a new beginning u have my support gal... so the best out of it ]

Yo hoho

2007-09-16T09:54:00.000-07:00

Sry guys never blog or msg recently ! got alot of studies to do wahaha! Final year exams coming soon ! 2 weeks from now ! jia you everyone ! may all of us pass with flying colours ! haiz... soon my tution lessons going to end soon ...will miss the teacher hhee he was a funny man never fail to make us laugh ! whwhaha we can laugh through out the whole lesson man and im always eager to attend his class...TELL u all one secret ...HE like Lesbian ! whhahahah Think he is just joking with us ba

Long time No Blog le

2007-09-09T17:36:00.000-07:00

Sry for not blogging for so long ! Recently alot of things happpened ...LAst sunday we went for netball carnival at the physical education school ( i think ) Its a Indoor air conditional hall u noe ! super nice ! We Went to second rounds juat like the junior but unfortunatley we meet north vista, dami and tanlin Sec ( the three Schools that went into national before ) BBut we have nothing else to lose ! we are all against Sec 3 ppl ! heehehe Like coach had say : "its not our lost but its their lost if we make them struggle" Jia you Netballers We continue to Fight hard and bring glory to our school man !
The following Monday - Wednesday
Monday is the start of CSP camp ! its the first time i attend this kind of camp and is the forst time i became a ASL so cool ! i think being a ASL is better than being a GSL wahahaha dunno y ! the food of day was super nice la better than my batch de ! SO not FAir HUmp ! heehe then at night tent pitching session ! haiz can say that the sec 1 did a pretty good job ! and its like the seeing last time how we use to be during CSP ! wahahaa so CUTE ! But at night we kana 30 Pumping ! haiz ...My back dam pain ! ah.....
Tuesday - games
me, joey, jia qi and kailing wake up early in the morning to prepare kaya and peanut butter bread for the camp ! it was my first experience to make so many bread in a day ( its like 100 over of it ) we also make MIlo ! then after that is sit test ... me and clinton is in charge of sit test 4 - dangerous cliff also known as confidence fall ! when we try out the games , we ask Nurul HAZIQAH TO FALL ! u noe wat her leg hit my face dam pain la ! but we are able to catch her ...( thanks to the guys) whahha then during shawn group ... shawn actually hit we head and hit my ardm la when he fall Argh ! but suddenly the flash back of last time came back ! its was during last time de netball camp ! one of my senior , her eye was cutted by the glasses when one of the person fall and hit her ! IT SO SCARY LA ! scare that it will repeat again ! in the end everyting goes on smoothly ! wahahah
Wednesday - last day
Last day is the day we can go home YEa ! so happy ! the sec 1s wll so diff from my batch ..they were so hyper la ! keep on cheering for one another ! so cool and nice ! so sweet hehehh during project omega ! we went out to the "forest" so dam tired le la at that time ! MR NG AND me DEbate for like 3 days la ( the whole camp) he just cannot let me win for once ! wahahah but still thank goodness that all of us never be eaten by the canibals and survive . wahahaa
Thursday - natball trg
Omg ! its netball trg ! i cant miss it agianas i already miss one of it ! ya this time round i really used up all my energy for it sia ! daam tired and my back was so dam pain ! after having so many pumping in the camp ... netball also have to run haiz... nvm ! its ok ! i shall endure it ! heheheheh after trg we nnwet to toa payoh sport hall to see the 5 nation netball match! so cool ! all of the players are so tall ! the shortest is only like 168 cm tall ! omg! singapore Won the whole matches ! and is the campion of the year agian ! wahahaha yahoo ! heeheh so proud ! heeheheh
Friday - Homework day
Haiz have to do finish alll the homework within 24 hrs ! omg ! so hard la ! but nvm i can do it de ! val came to my hse to do homework and after that we gossip abt someone hehehe so fun ! then abt 4 .30 all of went out as i am going to watch the 5 nation netball match .....to be contiune

Wat kind of day is this!

2007-08-26T17:34:00.000-07:00

i shall update my blog now huh! hehehe recently alot of things going on ...like teachers' day concert , TESTS , project due and lots n lots of books to read ! wahhha cant breathe le la...So many things to handle all at a time ! especially netball so tiring...but i still love them alot ! ehheh One of the major things that have finish is the teachers day rehearsal part 1! It have given me so heart attacks. CLinton forgot to give cue to me half way ! i was panicing like **** already ! luck got the 2 MC to calm me down ! but its was quite fun behind the backstage ...its just that clinton and those IN FRONT OF THE STAGE DUN NO ONLY ! wahahah many things happen behind the backstage ! ehehee Everyone of us was like playing and dancing ard when the curtain was close lor...many too nervous le that y ! think that clinton also very stress at that time ! SO cool NEVER argue WIll HIM FOR AT LEAST 9 DAYS LE ! wahhah so HAppy ! then after the rehearsal me , clinton and mr ng were having dinner together ! at the same time discuss abt SM and clinton STUFF ! wahahaha so funny sia ! me and mr ng bet on wat kind of food clinton will be eating ! i won ! for once i win a teacher ! hehehe ! but still thx to clinton every thing went well and he is able to an wei ppl at times ! but he shld relax more la ! MTT say that clinton alwaes look at girls...dun no true anot ??? whahhaah actually he is still not a bad guy after all ! its just that he will turn horny half way during the rehearsal ! lolol ( sry its my whole classs trend for now ! )

wild day for me

2007-08-10T09:22:00.000-07:00

Today was the coolest day in my life ! First time play from morning till nite...and never think of school life nor studies ! Abt 12 plus me ,jiaqi,val and susie went to paris ris park to cycle and we rented the two seater bicycle ...val was like laughing through out the whole thing la OMG and at the same time she shake the bike causing me to lose balance ! lol after we that we stopped at a shop to buy kite ! Supposingly val wanted to fly the kite and at the same time cycle de but we did not sucess then we went to the open field to fly it but THERE WAS NO WIND AT All AT THAT TIME ! we manage to make it fly for a while using the method that val was using in the photo below (the first one) ...hahah then at ard 2 plus 3 all of us was like so hungry and decided to go down town KFC to eat ! after eating we went to the arcade to play basket ball and other etc ...The shop opposite it was like so tempting lor ! So many cute cute toys and there's a big candy machine in it ! HA....then after a while susie have to go home le so me, jiaqi ,val and darrel( Surprise that he came )went to whitesand to play DDR ! OMG i had played DDR for AT least 10 TIME today lor ! leg muscle dam pain now and pretty tired...but it was fun though heheh first time play in arcade till like this crazy Woo But 2mr no more playing le ! must start work le ! yup yup

NDP performance

2007-08-08T07:20:00.000-07:00

Today is the Eve of National Day ! wahaha! and it's the day where we had waited for so long ...we performed our skit on the stage at the netball court ! It's so dam hot lor ! lol feel like burning le ! OMg ! have to put on makeup somemore ...so gross lor ! lol first time in my life wear until so girly lol so scary sia ... It will be the first and the last i going to skirt like those i wore today ! A little bit funny. Then after the performance the result was announce ! we got a merit award ... the juging system abit wreid ...nvm la wat has pass already passed. But it still feel very good though ! it's the 3rd time we work as a class together . Sobz this year is our last year together as a class... going to miss all of you for sure ! lol HAiz... Nvm As long as we Are alive...Class 2e4 passion will always be there ! wahhaha WE GOT A 50 DOLLAR food voucher...STill dun no HOW TO USE IT ! heheh then after the rest of the school are dismiss...we have our CIT for about 30 mins- 45 mins ...At ard 11 am me, clinton and Zafran we meet those ppl who are selected into the audition for a short briefing ! wahahh it was done quite fast . After we had dismissed from CIT me, Jia Qi and wuan yi went to central to meet up with val for lunch ...Kong wei was so kind to treat us water haha THANK YOU VERY MUCH heehehe When i went to buy my food .. the cleaner took my cup of drinks away...assume that i does not want it anymore ! OMG ! lol then it makes val laugh like shit la ...face turning red le ! Mean while we waited for susie as well then we went to Whitesand for some fun...ME and val one team , Wuan yi . susie and jia qi one team ! we played the basket game until crazy le In the end all our hand muscules become very stiff ! lol then we went to play DDR ! dam fun la ! it was my 3rd time attemping it liao ! it was qutie fun then val want to eat cheese fries at KFC then we have a gossip talk as well ...wahahah all of us laugh till stomachache whaha then after we want out of it ... at the same time we plan to go some other place ... in the end we went up to the arcade for a little while of fun ! Whahha after that we sat at the Kopitum for a little break ! and there it goes ... Gossip session again ! wahahha

Wat the hell

2007-08-05T03:14:00.000-07:00

Cool man ! recently all the test results was out ! did quite badly especially literature...score 10 ot of 25 ! haiz... nvm la next time round work harder for it haha but as for my science i have no confident for it at all ! can say that i plan to fail or fail to plan ba ! the topic ELECTRICITY ! it's so dam hard la ! Next yr taking physic sure die de ! The formula just dun want to get into my brain Argh....yesterday start the so call debating with X ! it's like wat the hell la ! X does not noe how ppl feeling la ! just continue shooting arrows ! Argh Then he called Y ! Y is the person i does not want to call la ! Y is like so busy le ! arhg! X you going to pay for it ! haiz.....but there's no point now la saying it ...wat to do learn to accpet it lor! but X do have X's point la ...and one more thing ! i will never be Y or I does not want to be Y ! i am myself n have enough of being others le !

Concert day

2007-07-29T07:15:00.000-07:00

Today went out with val, leo, sharilyn, alex , faiq and one of his band friend to watch MR Gary Ong performance...It's at Singapore conference HAll. Very cool inside lor lol but the songs they play was nice some was ait boring la but some is dam high one la for example they play the Rasa Saya ( malay song) all of us in the hall started to clap our hands ... i like the part where the person who is playing the drum do the flipping thingy IT's SO Cool la ! so as the others the fingering was like super fast la and all of them like play the same time ..so neat and nice la ! heeehee Mr Ong playing the flute ! heehe so COol Never though that he can play any instrument heheh opps! Then after that we have our dinner at bugis heehe the claypot rice so nice yahoo In the train Val was like keep on falling la so cute sia the look she gave heehee

TAke the city walk

2007-07-28T08:24:00.000-07:00

Day 0 27 July -Training

Woohoo we having our training at whitesand it's to give out three loli pops to the ppl out there and have them three question abt it ...and then have our briefing in music room ..dam cold la ! shivering like crazy le ! hahah we are then spilt into different cluster...yahoo...i was in class 1e5 Cool man my sec 1 camp class ! miss
them so much la ! hahha Ramdah ~~~ He is in chelsa groups ! omg so jealous !

Day 1 28 July - Action starts now

We woke up at ard 5.30am so sleeping and tired la...but sleep in the music room so cold ! then me , ting hui ,chelsa,rochelle and marcus went to the study area and sleep. Marcus Still can eat chips rite in the middle of the nite ! omg cool rite so more the chips is those kind that are spicy de ! At ard 6pm allof us gather at the study area near the atrium and have our breakfast ! we having Egg and tuna( i hate alot) sandwiches ! There so many of tuna sandwich la OMG ! some of us took some of the sandwich and put inside our bag in case the sec 1 are hungry ! heehee When we reaches our destination ... all of us got in to our own group . It's quite challeging at first despite that we noe each other but we have to overcome the volume of the audio sound system ...its pretty hard >.< the fact is that i cant speak ! having very bad sore throat ! We have pass by the marina bay looking at the platform that they construct for NATIONAL DAY ....quite pretty pretty actually ! too bad never have the chance to walk into it haiz...never mind la it's ok ! after that due to lack of time all of us have to run for abt 2km wthin 10 mins ...it so dam tried la ....After that we have our debrief at the atrium

DAy 1 after the dismissal

After the dismissal ...i meeting mu parents at century to have lunch with them then me , wuan yi and val took the same bus there ... they having lunch at TM ( at the same time eating the food i wan to eat ..argh! ) in the middle of shopping with my parents ...val called me and ask to meet at level 2 toilet ( wat a lame place to meet rite) When i reach there .. she wuan yi was like sitting on the sofa and was abt to sleep le ... they had stay in the toilet for more than half and hour omg ! first time knowing that ppl can stay in the toilet and sleep fot so long OMG! wahhaaha but still have fun abt it heehehhe

nth special

2007-07-26T07:44:00.000-07:00

This week was a terrible week ...so many problems coming up ! when can i stop arguing with him ?!! when can all this back stabbers stop what they are doing !?? Dun try to be a kind soul helping others . Care abt yourself first ba! dun worry soon it will be ur turn for sure to feel that way ! It'a kind of pay back! Just dunnno y recently becoming so cruel and mean ! CAnt even recogines myself now ! I want my old self back but i dun have a strong will to do it now ! What am i going to do ?? any suggestion ?? I dun wan to remain like this ... it's disgusted and horrible lor ....anyone can help Here ?? really in need of help !

Feeling so empty

2007-07-20T05:50:00.000-07:00

Feeling so empty ...it's like walking a very long long path n does not have any people or any ends...Despite the fact thAT its reaching the exit abt to see wonderful people standing in front of you...but Maybe some people just aren’t meant to be in our lives forever. Maybe some people are just passing through. It’s like some people just come through our lives to bring us something: a gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn, and that’s why they’re here... we’ll have that gift forever never be able to forget... Ya ! true that we have to learn to let go of things ...it's the matter how u going to let it go...It do hurt but seeing the other party happy..make me feel that it's worth doing it! People do have dream ...Dreams are often the only trust that can be found, for it is the only time when our hearts and souls are not shielded by anything. Your hope and dreams are legitimate. They are trying to take you above the clouds, above the storms - if you will only let them but it does not bring you too high up...for fear that you will get hurt.

What a ' wonderful ' Day

2007-07-17T22:10:00.000-07:00

Everything seem so complicated now...why cant people go back in time so that we can enjoy all the wonderful moment together ...why we have to go through so many emotions ?! Sry that i have make you feel that way ...ya wat's done cannot be undone so wat's the point of saying it rite ...wat am i suppose to do now ? cant i trust in ppl too ? why it must be me everytime ! i dun like this kind of feeling ! ppl i trust so much actually either betray me ,or leave me due to certain reasons....i dun wan the history to happen again! Anyone can tell me the solution ?? From now on whoever have anything to say ...pleace come straight to me ,dun talk things behind my back ...this kind of "joke" is not funny at all ... this condition applies to council, netball , and others friends as well . whether it's regarding my character . personality or any bad habit etc just tell me straight ... i wont be angry with u all or wat seriously ...i promise! this time round i wouldn't hold back anymore ....i'll be my ownself back! i have enough of pretending in front of others...(just for ur information if u all want to know)

How nice today was!

2007-07-16T06:43:00.000-07:00

IS being a nice person a bad thing?? is that's so i think i would want to be a bad guy instead...What u haf done was not appreciated ...so wat's the point of keeping it might as well torn it apart n throw it into the bin! why cant ppl understand it ... must it be directly say out ??